Life Before Jesus

'Mask' Everything!

I remember I wouldn't cry for 3 years. First, because of my belief systems in today's spirituality movement that says 'your thoughts create your reality'. So I wouldn't dare to acknowledge my real feelings; no negative thoughts = no negativity coming to me (which is not true).

And after Jesus, I would just let go & cry easily when I talked to Him about how I felt truthfully. It's freeing because I now have someone up there who is just going to accept me no matter what. He knows all our flaws.

Deep down we all know that this world is fucked up.

That's why we strive to know how to be happy through everything that we like/desire.

So, bottom line is when you feel life is BLAH or MEH; you're not alone. Me and I believe 8 billion people in the world from time to time felt this way. Some don't want to acknowledge the feeling, some so depressed that they no longer care, some still striving to put on a happy face because it help them not going down the rabbit hole, some will find pleasure/distraction in anyway we can; thinking it can fill-up our happiness jar; not realizing the jar will always be outside not within.

Bottom line is we're all the same; we have no clue and we just want to be happy.

My coping mechanism would be,try my best to eat & drink healthy (this include eat healthy supplement; which I'm going to share later). Move! Morning walk, doing your house-hold chores will help give you a dopamine boost once you complete a single simple task.

Pray! Ask for help; as simple as: "LORD I feel shitty today, or LORD give me a boost, help lift up my spirit.

Hear music you love! :)

Last! Find your purpose; it doesn't have to be a big one. Create something you like and pour your heart and being into that. For me, at the moment, it's clearly through writing, even though I doubt people would read/find this. I don't care. As long as I write. This helps me.

I hope you find yours too :)